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These past few days have been... interesting. I have learned a few things about myself and about the world in which I live. I won't go through the details, but I will say that I have learned how valuable my friends are, and also how wonderful. It am truly fortunate.

I am also increasingly aware that this chapter of my life is coming to a close. I am now looking forward to that more than ever. I am ready to say good-bye to Nebraska, and also to school. In fact, I have only 93 days left here, 72 days until I graduate. I have already said good-bye to many of my college friends, and some I may never see again. Others I will see occasionally at best.

This is where I should have some sappy line about how I will be making new friends in the next chapter. However, I will spare you, and just say that I am looking forward to what life is going to throw at me next, for destiny is indeed what you make of it.

Posted by nick.steinbaugh at 11:04 PM
Filed under: Friends

Rappelez-vous l'objet que nous vîmes, mon âme,
Ce beau matin d'été si doux:
Au détour d'un sentier une charogne infâme
Sur un lit semé de cailloux,

Les jambes en l'air, comme une femme lubrique,
Brûlante et suant les poisons,
Ouvrait d'une façon nonchalante et cynique
Son ventre plein d'exhalaisons.

Le soleil rayonnait sur cette pourriture,
Comme afin de la cuire à point,
Et de rendre au centuple à la grande Nature
Tout ce qu'ensemble elle avait joint;

Et le ciel regardait la carcasse superbe
Comme une fleur s'épanouir.
La puanteur était si forte, que sur l'herbe
Vous crûtes vous évanouir.

Les mouches bourdonnaient sur ce ventre putride,
D'où sortaient de noirs bataillons
De larves, qui coulaient comme un épais liquide
Le long de ces vivants haillons.

Tout cela descendait, montait comme une vague
Ou s'élançait en pétillant;
On eût dit que le corps, enflé d'un souffle vague,
Vivait en se multipliant.

Et ce monde rendait une étrange musique,
Comme l'eau courante et le vent,
Ou le grain qu'un vanneur d'un mouvement rythmique
Agite et tourne dans son van.

Les formes s'effaçaient et n'étaient plus qu'un rêve,
Une ébauche lente à venir
Sur la toile oubliée, et que l'artiste achève
Seulement par le souvenir.

Derrière les rochers une chienne inquiète
Nous regardait d'un oeil fâché,
Epiant le moment de reprendre au squelette
Le morceau qu'elle avait lâché.

— Et pourtant vous serez semblable à cette ordure,
À cette horrible infection,
Etoile de mes yeux, soleil de ma nature,
Vous, mon ange et ma passion!

Oui! telle vous serez, ô la reine des grâces,
Apres les derniers sacrements,
Quand vous irez, sous l'herbe et les floraisons grasses,
Moisir parmi les ossements.

Alors, ô ma beauté! dites à la vermine
Qui vous mangera de baisers,
Que j'ai gardé la forme et l'essence divine
De mes amours décomposés!

Charles Baudelaire

Posted by nick.steinbaugh at 10:53 AM
Filed under: Poetry

This has been my IM away message for the past few days. Both of the Microsoft Design Studio teams made the voyage, which is actually just under the distance from Lincoln to Loveland.

We were originally slated to take a bus, but then we decided to drive. We were then going to take two university vans, but we discovered that they have a maximum speed limit of 65 (and are monitored via GPS to enforce it). So, we decided to drive our own cars, but obviously we would need more then two. We ended up taking four cars, as Johnny wanted to depart earlier than everyone else was scheduled to leave. We took my car, Cliff's Prius, Dani's Alero, and Johnny's car as well. Johnny went separately, but everyone else caravaned.

The trip itself was pretty boring, aside from the snowstorm that hit Nebraska/Omaha/South Dakota the night before. Once we got past Sioux Falls, though, we had no trouble at all. We stopped for lunch in Sioux City, and for gas in Sioux Falls. Just south of the North Dakota/South Dakota border, we came upon a very strange sight - the contintental divide! That's right, it's not just in the rockies. In fact, North America has a few divides. Apparently everything north of this one empties into Hudson Bay. When we got to Fargo, the weather was actually much warmer than my previous trip, which was good, though it still wasn't exactly warm. After checking into the hotel room, we went across the street to have dinner at Granite City with some of the Microsoft people. Most of us had alcohol with our meal; I had steak number one, and a stout beer.

The following day at Microsoft was a lot of fun. Aside from the various meetings and reviews, we had a catered lunch, a guided tour of the Fargo facilities, and we even got gift bags from our wonderful client. In the bag was a t-shirt, a nice ledger, and chocolate-covered potato chips (apparently a North Dakota thing). That night, we again went out to dinner with the Microsoft folks, at a restaurant called Old Broadway. Here I had steak number two, which put the previous dinner to shame. To go with the meal, I followed the menu's wine suggestion, and enjoyed an excellent cabernet. I was driving, so I limited myself to the one drink, but were definitely others who had quite a bit more than that. David Kim even ended up making origami at the table, as did Dani. We all had a great time.

The following day, we went in for another early morning at the Microsoft campus, and we left around 2:00 to head back to Lincoln. The trip home was even more uneventful as the trip to Fargo, and we made it to lincoln around 9:30.

Posted by nick.steinbaugh at 6:06 PM